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Shock (sugar water) - The Fictional Diaries of Ms. Spell
Born with the sole purpose of making a bad pun

Ms. Spell
2007-06-17 21:13
Shock (sugar water)
fandom: lost, genre: angst, genre: drama, genre: romance, jack shephard, jacket, juliet burke, un_love_you prompt
Shock (sugar water)
un_love_you, #15: “This is my desperation in action.”
Rating: PG
Characters: Jack Shephard, Juliet Burke
Timeline: The Man From Tallahassee
Word count: 635
Author's Notes: Stream of thoughts. If it seems confusing, that was the point. :D
Disclaimer: This is a fictional, nonprofit work for entertainment purpose only. The copyright in the TV show LOST and its components is owned by "American Broadcast Companies, Inc.", which reserves all rights therein.

I'm not going home. The water glows. Almost poetic I'm not going home someone restrains Jack. I'm not going home. Jack furious, Jack irrational. Jack just like me I'm not going home even though in a different way.

It's over. The man, John Locke. He blew it up it's over, he blew the damn submarine up and now I'm not going home stuck in this place forever and it's over it's over it's over.

Calm down. And breathe. Another way. Ben. There must be another way. Calm down and breathe and you will find out another way traitor. Stay calm. Calm. Breathe. Breathe. Ben. Traitor. Monster. Calm down. Breathe. Breathe.

"There's nothing else down here, Jules. Go back home." Home. I'm not going home. Asshole.

Just listen to the music and the traffic in the city.

Home. House. In the barracks. Go back. It's over. There's not much choice, right? Calm down and breathe and be reasonable. Not going home. Coffee. You need coffee. No, water. No coffee. Caffeine is a stimulant. Caffeine will keep you very, very agitated. Bad. No coffee. Ben.

It's cold. I knew I should had put on the cardigan. The submarine would be metal-cold, what was I thinking. Jack. Should you unpack? Yes you should. No you shouldn't. Stop thinking in third person. Home.

That stupid man, John Locke. Pawn.

Ben. Kill Ben. Monster. Die.

Jack here. Why here? They should put him in the camera house. They think I'm going to what, hold him down? They should be a bit more respectful not going home ever I have just been put under a traumatic experience. Jack shouting, Jack waving his arms around tattoo burn pain mark.

Jack's just a silly big dog really.

Jack warm arm sex no no no no no.

"Sit down." It's my voice. "Sit down, Jack." Sit down, Jack. "Jack." Sit down god dammit. "Jack, sit." Silly big dog. "Please."

Jack good boy. Should get you a cookie. Man pain need care. "I'll get water."

Stupid, stupid John Locke. John Locke was a philosopher. Ben's perfect toy. What was his school of thought? Wasn't he the guy that said man was naturally good? Haha. No, that was Rousseau. Ben likes philosophy. Hate Ben liar.

Damn light bulb. I told Goodwin the lights are much brighter there God it's been three months already. Goodwin man dead pawn. Pain pawn Goodwin sex Jack no stop it. Light up you stupid thing. Forget it. Cup, water, sugar.

Cup, water, sugar. Two cups Jack and I, Jack and I spoon spoon spoon. Water. Is it bad that I get the water directly from the tap I'm not going home Ben suggested liar that we used the filter. Water water. Donwtown things will be great when you're downtown. Sugar yeah, maybe I should tell Jack about the sugar tell Jack tell Jack so much to tell Jack he might not like sugar water but hey, that's what everybody does when they're nervous. Sugar water. Cry oh my God don't.

Sugar sugar stop trembling oh honey honey, you're going to let this damn cup fall if you don't hold on hold on just a little longer no no no. Damn. Damn. It's all over. It's all over.

Don’t you dare come over here, Jack.

Come please come please Jack God home why why why.

Stay. Good boy. Stay. No no no, stay. Stop crying. Don't let him. No. Bad. No. Kiss love sex no hold me hold me please God. Damn no, Jack. No, Jack. I'm perfectly fine, Jack. This is not a good idea please. Not like this not here not now. Hold me hold me hold me. Don't. Sex Jack home pain. Smell good kiss please forget forget forget.

You can forget all your troubles forget all your cares.

2007-06-18 00:22 (UTC)
(no subject)
I understand I think.

I mean I can follow her train of thought. For the most part. Not so much about the monster.

And then the last part, I can't decide if something is actually happening or if her mind is just going these places. It's the 'Not like this..' thats making me think that it's happening. oh well.

I still lurve it.

Ms. Spell
2007-06-18 01:09 (UTC)
(no subject)
It's ok, I myself am not sure. Thanks for liking it anyway. :DDD

(The monster thing was about Ben... now I realize it could apply to Smokey too. Yay for multiple meanings! XD)

2007-06-22 12:29 (UTC)
(no subject)
Oooooooo i liked this !!

Really different take on what Jules was probably feeling when Locke (the fucking cunt) blew up the sub ......... I like how you turned her into a babbling idiot on the inside and had her keep her calm facade on the outside.


Ms. Spell
2007-06-22 17:58 (UTC)
(no subject)
Yeah, that's actually something I see a lot in Juliet - the desperate woman behind the ice queen mask. It's one of the things I love in the character.

Thanks! :)