Characters: Jack Shephard, James "Sawyer" Ford (no slash)
Timeline: Pilot Part 1, The Long Con
Word count: 128
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This fic won lost_fic_awards's Best Drabble Award in July '07.
One, two, three, four, five.
He counts to give himself time – an estimated minimum of time – to gather up his thoughts, breathe and remind himself of the procedures. He counts to keep his mind from panicking, to limit his fear, to control his trembling hands for the rest of the surgery.
You don't have what it takes.
(He counts to forget.)
One Mississipi, two Mississipi, three Mississipi, four Mississipi, five Mississipi.
He counts to give her time – an estimated maximum of time – to throw her bag into the car, sit behind the wheel, breathe and get out of there. He counts to keep his mind from running after her, leaving his life and traumas behind, choosing freedom over pain.
Tiger doesn't change its stripes.
(He counts to remember.)